i have a fucked up life
Life has been kicking my ass over and over again for the past 6 years. When will it stop?
ha
was on daul kims blog
“그냥 단순히
시간은 너무 짧아
그리고 기억은 너무 아파
더이상 아픈기억
만들필요 없잖아
오히려 부딧히는게
더 쓸쓸한거 보다 나을지 몰라
차라리 서로 때리는게 나을지 몰라
하지만 그냥 나는 너무 아까워 시간이”
Such similar minds and feelings.
anyways her blog gave me a better positive feel.
What is life anymore.
No one knows what I have to go through every fucking day. Every fucking conversation. Every night.
Im so tired nobody gets that. Not just me, 엄마 too.
How long do I have to pretend to be happy for everyone. How long do I have to deal with this shit. BECAUSE IM FINISHED. Moving out wouldnt do anything. I just want to sleep forever.
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Seasons change and so do people.
I don’t like the new me.
I don’t like how my friends are evolving.
Everyday i feel like somethings wrong with me.
New pet peeves…
1. Promises
Don’t say something that you can’t follow up. I’m just sick of it.
2. Judgemental people
Just stop.
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ughhh, sometimes i wish i could be naive. Maybe then I could enjoy everything better.
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I’m glad i told you everything, I’m so relieved that you wouldn’t have to learn the hard way. I was aware that everything that was built up so far would become absolutely meaningless. I knew everything that I say from now on will be a lie to you. I knew you wouldn’t be able to trust me anymore.
But fucking sometimes I wish I hadn’t told you. It’s so fucking weird now. SO FUCKING EMPTY YO. THERE ARE NO FEELINGS ANYMORE.
I know I need to get over it, and I will. But it’s so weird that last new year’s eve, we were so close. I was so fucking happy that day. Then we flash forward to 4 days ago on New Years eve.. Everything was different. You don’t exist. I especially don’t exist. But what ever, I suffered enough from you. You’re happpppppppy now and Im the fucking weirdo now. Whatever. Who needs a good friend anyways.
